Words and stuff

Sometime I get high and write things in the notes on my phone. These are just a couple, I'll post more as they come.

#1

Words hurt.

They leave marks,

Not physically.

But with enough time,

These marks begin to show,

And the pain starts to pour out of your eyes 

And you are broken. 

#2 

At the age of 14 you think you know all there is to know. You're practically an adult. You fall (hard) for anything a boy tells you. "You're hot" "you got a nice ass" so romantic. 

And then he goes in for the kiss. You're nervous, not sure what to do. So you wait for his direction. You feel his tongue on yours and you're excited. This is everything. You've ever wanted. You're very first kiss. Behind the bleachers. Hoping your braces don't get stuck together. Hoping you don't get caught. Hoping you're doing everything right. If only he could hear the thoughts. Sprinting through your head. If only it meant as much to him. As it. Did to you. But what he will never admit. Is that. It did. 

#3

You turn me on
with the things you do,
the things you say,
and all the things I hate.

#4 

Raindrops drip as tears run down my face,

It's comforting knowing the weather is as sad as I am.

#5

It's funny

How when you're older you revert back to a child

You live in a home

Where people are constantly trying to keep your attention

Exactly like an infant

And someone cuts your food and helps you dress and bathe

You need to be watched at all times so you don't act up

It's funny

How you can live all these years and then it's as if its totally washed away

You're helpless when you're born and you're helpless when you die

It's funny

How cyclical life is

And how sometimes it's over before you've had a chance to live.

#6

Boys have this ability

To smile

And make you forget,

His words

That hurt you the most.

His actions

That made you feel small.

His mouth

Will burn holes in your skin

And you

Will let it all happen

Because

You are weak

And his lips

Are still as sweet

As the first time you kissed

#7

I used to look at him and see stars in his eyes,

but slowly, eventually,
those stars faded,
and all that was left were black holes.

#8
People will use fear to control you.
If you don't believe in God, you will go to hell.
If you don't listen to your government, you will go to jail.
If you don't work hard, you will be unsuccessful.
If you don't do as your parents say, you will be punished.
If you don't think the way others do, you are wrong.
But remember
You are free, you are free, you are free.

#9
I've got some issues that nobody can see,
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me.

(I realize this is a Kid Cudi lyric but at the time I was really convinced I made it up)