Today is one page of a 365 page book

Today is just one page of a 365 page book. What you do with it is up to you. But what if you had physical books about your life. I'm not sure if that would be awesome or frightening... What if you had a book filled with every time you ever laughed, every happy memory you've ever had. What if you had a book filled with all the low points in your life, would you read it? You would probably see that most of that bad is completely outweighed by the good. What if you had a book filled with every time you were mean, every time you said something you shouldn't have. What if you had a book filled with every time your actions affected someone else? Would you live differently? What if you had a book filled with everyone who ever said your name, ever adored, disliked, or was jealous of you. Would you realize your importance? What would it take for you to understand that your actions completely affect everyone around you. The things you say, the things you do, all have an impact whether you know it or not. Every time you say something negative, you are feeding that to the universe. You're encouraging other people to do the same. Because the same way positivity radiates, so does negativity, probably worse. All these mind games and fake smiles, what do we get out of it in the end? Confusion? Instead of telling people how we feel we pretend we don't care. Because it's easier, because you can't feel pain if you never put yourself out there. But the pain of the unknown can be far worse. As long as we know we can eventually process and accept the outcome, good or bad. Thinking of what could have been is harder than knowing what is. What will it take for us, as humans, to live as such. To live and feel and hurt as we were meant to. That we should never be embarrassed by an emotion or feel the need to hide it. And as much as I tell myself this and want to believe it I'm still terrified of my emotions myself. It's hard for your heart and mind to coincide when they tell you different things. You can believe in something all you want but the real difficulty is acting upon it. These indoctrinated ideas in our head make it so so hard. Some thing's need to be changed collectively. We can tell ourselves something over and over but there will always be a little voice in the back of our head telling us not to, trying to protect us from getting hurt. But sometimes it's the pain that helps us grow and move forward. If you had a book filled with your whole life story, would you like who you are? If you had a book that completely described the human race as a whole, would you be ashamed? I think I might be. Ashamed of what we've become, what we value, what we do and say. So much hate and violence and war. When will there be peace? Will there ever be? Can there ever be? "Those who love peace must learn to organize as effectively as those who love war." Why is it so much easier to be mean than to be nice? What will it take for us to love one another? Today is just one page in a 365 page book. What you do is up to you. You have the choice to make a difference, to be the change. Be the change.