I can’t hold this secret in any longer. I feel so heavy
inside, like I need to shed my skin to finally fit into my body. What will
people say? Will my ex boyfriend understand? I guess I should tell my parent’s
first. I sit them down.
I can tell they realize something’s up. My nerves are
getting the best of me. The clock across the room is ticking to the beat of my
heart. Just as my mom’s about to say something my mouth opens and word vomit
explodes into the room, “I’M STRAIGHT!”
So many things are rushing through my head as my parent’s
process what they’ve just heard. I watch my mom’s eyes look at each other and
then back to me. I don’t know how long the silence was but to me it felt like
eternity.
Oh no, I should have eased into it. Are they in shock? Are
they ever going to say anything? Should I say something? But what could I say? I
just shattered their whole idea of me as a man. I smile awkwardly. I’ll take it
back… just kidding ha ha ha… no I can’t. It’s finally out into the universe.
There’s no way I’m going back to giving hand jobs in the back of the movie
theater. Mama seems more okay with it then mom, but it’s hard to tell. This was
the worst idea of my life…
Then at the same time they both smile and say, “we know.”
